Some days life is all topsy turvy. The world seems upside down and turned around these days. What was once up is now down and what was once frowned upon is now applauded. Those who say they love children and babies only protect them once they are born, not before. Those who say they support women don't support them if suggest we respect ourselves by not dressing inappropriately. Those who say they respect life are murdering others. The other day every story in my Facebook newsfeed seemed to want to remind me of what foods and vitamins can kill me and what my children shouldn't be doing that I once did because now it's dangerous instead of fun. (Side note: I'm on a Facebook break for my sanity).
It makes my head hurt and the other day it found me shutting off Instagram and FB and just about literally huddled in a fetal position while I nursed my daughter to sleep for her nap (by the way, I'm not supposed to be doing that either, whether it feels right and natural to me or not). I closed my eyes against the tears and all the voices in my head and I heard a still small voice say "Be still." That was weird. I said, "Huh? Why did that thought pop into my head?" It sort of creeped me out, but I heard the words again. "Be still." And I then I heard, "Be still and know that I am God."
It happened again a few days later as my mind raced with worry about another situation I'm currently facing. I kneeled to wash my daughter's hair and as my thoughts raced from worry to worry to worry I heard the words "Be still.." again...
I often tell God, "Lord, I am awful at being still, at least as far as my mind goes. You know this. Yet you still urge me to remember that you are God. You are in control of my finances. You are in control of my health and that of my children. You are in control of the world, even when it seems out of control. Please, help me to not forget and please keep placing those words in my mind."
Psalm 46:9-11 "…9He makes wars to cease to the end of the earth; He breaks the bow and cuts the spear in two; He burns the chariots with fire. 10"Cease striving and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth." 11The LORD of hosts is with us; The God of Jacob is our stronghold. Selah."