Faithfully Thinking: I refuse to call it my anxiety anymore

No weapon formed against you shall prosper,
And every tongue which rises against you in judgment
You shall condemn.
This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord,
And their righteousness is from Me,”
Says the Lord."
Isaiah 54:17 (NKJV)

I say it at least three times a week.

"My anxiety is high today."

"My anxiety has me stressed."

"My anxiety is holding me back."

"I hate my anxiety."

Well today I have decided that I no longer want to claim anxiety as "mine."

Lisa R. Howeler, 2017

 

Claiming it means I own it and it owns me. Claiming it puts me in a self made prison.

Calling it mine means I expect it to be there. I expect to feel anxious. I expect to feel depressed. I expect to feel confused.

Overwhelmed.

Lost.

God did not give me anxiety.

Anxiety is not of God.

He did not hand it to me and ask me to be responsible for it. Then why should I call it "my anxiety."

Yes I will struggle with anxiety.

Yes, it will be there when I don't want it to be.

But it will no longer be mine.

It can be "the anxiety I face."

Or "the anxiety I fight."

But it will no longer be "my anxiety."

It will no longer rule me, control me, put me in chains.

You, anxiety, and the author of anxiety no longer will have a hold on me.

You, anxiety, have no authority over me or my life.

You fall under the authority of someone much greater, someone who died on a cross to take away my infirmities.

You fall under my authority given to me by King Jesus when He died on the cross and bore all sin, all sickness, all anxiety.

"For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places." (Ephesians 6:12King James Version (KJV)

Lisa R. Howeler, 2017

Through Christ I have authority over the rulers of the darkness of this world .

Anxiety, you are not mine.

Anxiety, you are not in control.

Anxiety, you will not consume me.

Anxiety, you belong with the one who resides in Hell and who will always reside in Hell.

You are not "my anxiety ".

You are his weapon of destruction but no weapon formed against me will prosper (Isaiah 54:17) and that includes the anxiety I no longer own.

 

Lisa Robinson-Howeler

Lisa Howeler Photographer, Athens, PA

I'm a wife, mom, writer and photographer from Northeastern Pennsylvania. I'm a former journalist, which is what my degree is in, and enjoy the freedom of being able to create as a mainly self-taught photographer.