I meet my son's bus at an old school parking lot and usually we head home right away to make dinner and get ready for karate or to get homework started.
This past week we've had warm temperatures and sunny days but I've been too busy to enjoy it. By the time I have been ready to experience some of the warmth, the sun is already sinking below the hills that surround the small town we live in.
One day I took my daughter out of her seat as we waited for her brother and admired the golden light of the already setting sun. When my son got off the bus I heard myself say:
"Oh wow... Look at that light ... It's amazing."
I knew we had to get home, get dinner done and get to karate. No time for photography or having fun or just cutting loose. I had to start being responsible and stop being such a goof off, as I tend to find myself being.
"Then what are we waiting for?" I heard my son say and before I could remind him we have responsibilities he took took off across the still green grass, tinted golden by the sun.
Without even thinking I was carrying the baby across the grass and watching my son climb a tree limb that had broken off one tree and fallen against another.
Soon My daughter was trying to eat dried black walnuts and I was admiring the sun flare behind her head.
I forgot schedules and responsibility and we ran down a hill and laughed and hugged each other while the sun set behind us.
Sometimes we need those spontaneous moments of joy. We need to put aside what we tell ourselves are responsibilities but are probably only things we do because someone else does and we don't want to look like a bad parent to someone else.
My son seems to often transform mundane moments into magical ones. Watching him climb the tree limb, sitting at the top,proud of his accomplishment, I found myself admiring his willingness, maybe even his determination to seize the moment and go with the flow.
Before I had children I saw parents as the teachers and the children as students but now that I'm a mother i realize my son often leads me and where he leads me is into a world where the focus is on what is true, real and important.