I'm not a fan of winter. Winter depresses me. It is cold, obviously, void of sun,most of the time and it is long and dreary and yucky and I hate it -- so there. I thought I would have longer before it stretched out its bony fingers but alas, snowflakes started falling this past weekend, two weeks before Halloween. Yuk.
Before those flakes made their unwelcome appearance, the offspring and I enjoyed some time outside in the sun. I breathed in the smell of warm sun on brightly colored leaves crunching under my feet. I delighted in the sight of my children walking without coats, knowing all too well they would be soon bundled up and constricted in winter fabric.
Constricted is how winter makes me feel. I feel trapped in my home but also inside myself. I feel like my creativity fades away with the sun and my excitement for life crumbles like the dead leaves strewn across the ground.
But this year I'm going to try my best to find joy in the dreary. I'm going to draw on my son's enthusiasm for each season. He finds the good in what otherwise could be bad and I want to be more like him. I want to seek and find joy.
Yes, winter is cold and nasty and dreary and sad and all that is bad, but it is also an excuse to have an extra cup of cocoa and stay home to cuddle under a blanket. It is a chance for the world to slow down and families to find each other again as the snow piles up or the cold scrapes against the windows and doors.
I will not let winter steal my joy this year. This year I claim joy even in winter.
And I will enjoy Fall as long as it is here; until the last brightly colored leaf falls from the limb of the naked tree limbs.